Am I Running In Circles???

"The world can be amazing when you are slightly strange" 

-Unknown 

I'm feeling a little frazzle dazzled and spastic lately.  I'm not sure what has gotten into me and I'm not sure where I'm heading, but for the first time in a long while, I'm kind of okay with it.  I still don't like the idea of the unknown, but something has changed.  Maybe I'm finally moving towards my destiny.  I'm a firm believer of that, by the way, so just deal if you disagree with my theories.  You don't have to read this if you chose to be a hater.

Why don't we agree to disagree?

Have you ever had that day, where you find yourself alone, and chattering away, laughing at a conversation you had via email with your prisoner boyfriend.  No?  Okay, that's just me....  I also caught myself doing a spontaneous karate kick for no reason, again, alone.  I didn't realize it was weird until my co-worker mentioned my dancing-toe-tapping that I was doing while I was talking about something.  Maybe I'm just really really happy.  

It's not maybe.  I'm really super happy.  I hope this lasts.

About a month ago, I felt as low as I've felt.  I know it has allot to do with the weather (aka lack of sunshine) and I've been missing Eric more and more, but I'm okay.  These are steps that I believe I have to make in order to become the woman that I want to be. 

But, the biggest question of all is, what do I want to do with my life?  Does anyone else find it wildly unacceptable that a woman at the age of NEARLY 31, still has no idea.  I feel like I might be on the verge of something.....  just teetering on the edge between good enough and something great.  I'm in the search for greatness.

I would also like to personally gloat about my run last week.  My friend Mandy and I joined in the 7 mile "Run for the luck of it".  It's an amazing feeling when you set out on the run with a ten minute mile goal and finish in just over an hour, averaging 8:47 minute miles.  

Say what?

Maybe this great feeling is the after burn of accomplishing something I never thought possible.  Consistently running under 9 minute miles.  Me?  No way.  I'm not a runner.....

That's all I have to say.

Until next time......